my forgotten passion

bismillah.
due to the fact that now i keep a journal.
the blog was rarely updated.

not really a boring life without any significant occasions.
i got to learn many significant things.
alhamdulillah.


talking about passion.
(you can always insert any hobbies, artwork or any activities you enjoy doing in your imagination here.)
i have quite a few of 'em.

photography.
artwork.
sketching random things (though i'm bad at it).
interior-designing (only for my own room, of course).
observing the world from my point of view (i used to walk a lot. besides keeping me fit, i got to see so many things).
reading anything.

i used to love doing these.
and i still loved it.

but the fact that growing up needs more time for me to NOT being able to do these kind of things.
i forgot these things gradually.
things that keep me alert.
things that keep me moving.
things that keep me being, just ME.
i miss them.

and that disappointing fact that i kept spending my time on useless things.
it bothers me a lot.
what have I done in my life, despite not being myself anyway?

ugh.truth hurts.
i need a change of pace.
i need a break from thinking what people think of me.
i just need myself. my very own self.

Ya Allah who knows everything.
please guide my journey.



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