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bismillah.

minggu getir yang sepatutnya diisi dengan perkara yang sangat berfaedah (baca : study) telah selamat dihabiskan dengan duduk menung bersahaja. haihh -.-" terima kasih kepada midterm exam kaedah maths dlm fizik yg memberi kejutan 1000volt seterusnya menghilangkan angan-angan jenin saya. terima kasih madam, for insisting that we should have exam as early as we can.

well. at least i won't be sitting around and spacing out anymore.
we have to give our best in every single thing, right? kalau tak macamanalah Allah nak nilaikan usaha kita.
Allah jadikan sesuatu tu MESTI ada hikmahnya. sabarlah diri. sabar tu pun, berkali-kali ganda lagi ganjarannya.

well,frankly speaking, i got to admit, it's kinda hard for me to mix in a new surrounding. that insecure feel, well,you know. i don't have that 'mesra alam' attitude anymore. i don't have that noisy mouth that asks everything anymore, ever since i left school. simply said as, an outspoken person turned into an introvert.

and i still wonder why.

by the way, moga perpindahan ni, dimudahkan Allah. amin~

reflection

I have to admit that I fell in love with Sabah at the first sight. Didn't really know why, but there's this strong feeling that is lingering and whispering, "there's something for you here". yea, that kind of feel.

The scenery, subhanallah. The greenery, masha Allah. The people, alhamdulillah. 

great experiences. far from homeland. kinda new.

Ya Allah, thanks for sending me here even I almost rejected the offer and being all gloomy for it at first. indeed, You're the only One who knows best. 

I can see now. You're sending me here to make me stronger. to heal me from what I've been suffering from before. Oo Allah, indeed You're the Most Merciful. still giving me the best of all, when I didn't even give my very best in anything I do. when I'm still drowning in my own sins.

You give me the best.

You even heal me.

I kinda understand now. 

that Allah knows it all. Allah knows. Allah knows.

permata usrah hari ni : 

" Allah SWT dan Rasulullah SAW telah lama memilih untuk mencintai kita, jauh lebih lama, lebih dahulu daripada ketika kita benar-benar memilih untuk mencintai Allah SWT dan Rasulullah SAW. "

*terasa jiwa dihentak bertubi-tubi. gulp*

now who can say Allah doesn't love us? after all His blessings that were given to us....

who can say that Rasulullah doesn't love us, even we didn't even get the chance to meet him? who did he mention when he is in sakaratulmaut, the most painful moment of all pain?

anddd...

when will we actually choose to love Allah, to love Rasulullah, who loved us sooooo much?

Allahu.

*lempang diri sendiri berkali-kali*

bulatan gembira yang menjana iman, moga-moga inshaAllah.

Allah, berkatilah usaha kami di jalanMu. redhakan ukhuwah kami yg terjalin keranaMu.

moga hati-hati ini Allah tautkan dan kuatkan hingga ke jannah :)

ALHAMDULILLAH.

Allah, keep me strong.

bismillah.

Al- Fatihah untuk wan, Siti Baheram binti Joned yg kembali ke rahmatullah beberapa minggu yg lepas.

terkilan sikit sebab baru je balik Sabah, and memang tak dpt nak balik semenanjung balik untuk ziarah kali terakhir. Allah, hanya Kau yang Maha Mengetahui keadaan ketika itu.

terima kasih Ya Allah, kerana setia mendengar tatkala kesedihan ini terpaksa ditanggung seorang.

indeed, only Allah knows. Allah knows :'(

moga arwah wan tenang kat sana.

teringat betapa arwah wan suka memanja-manjakan cucu-cucu dia.

Allahu. rinduuu :'(

Allah, ganjari wan dgn sebesar-besar kasihMU.

Allah, moga segala kebaikannya tinggi dalam pandanganMU.

terima kasih utk segalanya, wan.

Allah,You're the only one who knows deep down inside the heart. thanks for giving me enough strength to keep smiling even the heart was torn into pieces.

p/s : menaip post sambil dengar lagu muhasabah cinta, memangggg laju lahh kan. tissue, please.